Greetings and Welcome to my world,

Hi, I hope your having a beautiful day.

My name is Dulce Flores.

Financial Freedom.

Once you have made a clear goal. Focus, balance, and take care of your priorities. Make yourself a priority , self care is self love, but balance. Reminder, we have 24 hours to work with, set your goals and remember to take it a step it a time.

I'm not lazy- I just think too much and I've always been hard on myself, and sometimes I waste time worrying so much I can't sleep.

Why am i telling you all of this ?

Ever since I could remember I did my best in school in sports , and whatever I was involved in I made sure I did my best. I was a high achiever so I could get the good grades and get into a good school. I did it all for you, so you could be proud of me. You see that was the problem. Once, I realized I had to do it for myself, my life completely changed.

I'm on my own from here.

But, before i took a break from college, I was still a high achiever. Believe me, or not , I was a Full time student with 2 jobs. I did that for my first 2 years of college. I did work study during the week and had a part time job on the weekends. I switched my major multiple times, from biology to psychology to Art, and then I was interested in Interdisciplinary Studies. I'm interested in so many subjects, but what am I going to do with that degree? I couldn't see a future, so I took a break from college to recenter myself and I just focused on working to survive.

You see I wasn't motivated anymore, I guess I was depressed and confused and unfocused.

And don't let me bring up all the problems from my last relationship, I had codependency issues. I had limiting beliefs like "one income is not enough to survive in this economy - so get a partner to help you" is a toxic belief.

I notice the red flags now.

I'm telling you all of this because I was so confused, misguided, and unfocused.

I don't know if anyone can relate, but I sure felt like I was alone and I was at my lowest. No job, No income, and I was just pretending that I was fine. Thankfully, I found free resources online to help me better understand my situation and to seek professional help. I set my boundaries. First step, seek shelter and a safe environment to be- I had to leave my ex for good.

So I overcame that part of my life- I had to be thankful for the good and just move on.

I'm thankful that I got a job so soon. I still couldn't see a future for myself.

And all i got was minimum wage and 2 years of work history. I mean I lost my job because I had to take care of my mental health and seeking help was not my idea.

What did i learn from this experience?

I learned to be considerate for the mentaly ill. All I remember was that I could not sleep, I was worrying way too much. I was living paycheck by paycheck, I had bills piling up, I was stressed, depressed and anxious. My overthinking was causing me to lose track of time. I got so sick of living that way.

I was so skinny I mean I looked good but i barely had enough to eat and even though I lived on my own , I had barely enough for food. I'm sorry but i dont want to be codependent and I know I dont like asking for help because of my pride, but also strangers were more generous than my own family at that time.

Things change for the best.

I'm thankful for all the good, lets move on and take it a step at a time.

I'm in a better place, but not yet where I see myself. I learned a new quote, "enjoy the journey".

I can see a future for myself now.

I'm thankful my parents helped me to seek professional help, when I needed it the most.

I never wanted to take meds, I was afraid of the stigmas, I don't know why , but I was so afraid to let others help me . Things are different now then I remember in the past, I mean I could see the benefits of seeing a professional during my youth could have helped me and have a positive impact on my life Also, I find that people are more considerate about mental health awareness now.

I also have an emotional support cat that I have had with me for 14 years now. This is one of my most treasured blessings of my life. I mean, she is the cutest ragdoll mix that I found as a stray, the lady that saved my cats life blessed me with this unique cat. And everytime I look at my cat I believe that I'm so lucky to have her, I mean I am blessed to have a beautiful cat that loves me unconditionaly, I mean she loves me enough to stay with me.

I notice the blessing, I notice the differences.

The present is now.

I don't mean to be depressing, I share these stories , because I lived through that and I overcame those situations. I still do my best.

Well, that is enough for this newsletter, I hope you can appreciate my first newsletter.

Much Love, Take Care!

Talk soon,

Dulce Flores

(@be_live.prosperous)